Today has been an okay day so far. I spent most of my day with Maria, the girl I've been seeing for about 3 weeks now. I feel so safe and comfortable when I am with her. All I've had so far today was 2 cups of coffee, a grande skinny vanilla latte with soy milk (no whip of course) at Starbucks, two sips of a can of Budweiser, and a glass of diet cherry coke. 

I haven't eaten food in 10.5 days. I'll find out tomorrow an accurate number on the scale of what I've lost since I have a doctor's appt in the morning, that I'm not looking forward to since having to sign a release for my therapist to talk to him yesterday. My mom is mentioning wanting to take me out for dessert tonight, hot fudge sundaes, which I really don't want and keep telling her we can't afford and such, etc. I will purge it if I have to eat it, but dear god I don't want to ruin my food fast. 

-Penny